Friday, August 8, 2014

Starting Over...


I've had my ups and downs. I've lost weight and gained weight. I've gotten my sugar under control and let it get out of control. I've let life stress me out and effect my decision making in the form of food.

It's a constant battle.

Eating low carb isn't easy, and a lot of times it really, really sucks.

Why can't I just have a piece of chocolate cake without guilt, high blood sugar, brain fog, and extra pounds on the middle portion of my body?

Or a damned potato!

As I sit in a brain fog, no energy, extra pounds, I realize that my lack of productiveness has everything to do with what I put in my mouth.

Self-control or even self-care at times has become an issue. I tell myself that I really want to live, and live a productive life, yet I fail again and again.

I guess I will throw away that candy I bought yesterday. What was I thinking?

My mouth feels sticky and sick from a donut. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep. What was I thinking?

My pants are tight. What was I thinking?

My vision is wonky. What was I thinking?

I'm on insulin now. What the hell was I thinking?

Starting over...NOW.