Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Diabetes Sucks

My blood sugar is 268. I feel like a wet mop. Diabetes sucks. I'm struggling to get it back together and under control. I've done it before, but can I do it again?

This time I'm older. I'm struggling with weight, asthma, menopause, migraines, and stress. I'm a hot mess. I'm on insulin and fast acting insulin and a pill, and now my doctor tells me my cholesterol is high and my white blood cell counts are elevated. I never learn, do I?

Or I never keep it up and follow through. I go for so long before I peter out. Hit. The. Wall.

That wall hurts!

So here I go again. For the gazillionth time. I want to triumph. I really do, but it's so damn hard.

This time I'm trying some of the low carb My Fit Foods. Doctor recommended. Outrageously expensive. At least they taste good.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Low Carb Breakfast of Champions

I need breakfast.

In fact, if I don't eat early on I start to feel sick. But sometimes bacon or sausage and eggs just isn't enough to get me through until lunch (or at least mid morning). In order to fight the temptation of eating carbs when I don't feel quite full, I've devised a breakfast that gets me through.

THREE eggs (not just two) - Anyway you like them: boiled, scrambled, or fried.
2 pieces of sausage or 4 slices of bacon
1/4 cup Guacamole (or just plain avocado)
3-4 strawberries

The fat from the avocado really makes a difference. The strawberries gives just enough of a sweet taste to balance the rest of your breakfast out.  

Low Carb Crash

The effects of eliminating sugar from your diet...CRASH!

Blood sugar is going down, but I'm experiencing headaches and feeling funky. It's the low carb crash. My body is CRAVING carbs right now. I want to get some ice cream so bad that I can almost taste it. I'm trying hard to push through this awful feeling because I KNOW that I will feel so much better once I remove this toxic waste called SUGAR from my body.

This crashing feeling is normal, but difficult to handle. A nap is in order. And lots of water. 

Friday, August 8, 2014

Starting Over...


I've had my ups and downs. I've lost weight and gained weight. I've gotten my sugar under control and let it get out of control. I've let life stress me out and effect my decision making in the form of food.

It's a constant battle.

Eating low carb isn't easy, and a lot of times it really, really sucks.

Why can't I just have a piece of chocolate cake without guilt, high blood sugar, brain fog, and extra pounds on the middle portion of my body?

Or a damned potato!

As I sit in a brain fog, no energy, extra pounds, I realize that my lack of productiveness has everything to do with what I put in my mouth.

Self-control or even self-care at times has become an issue. I tell myself that I really want to live, and live a productive life, yet I fail again and again.

I guess I will throw away that candy I bought yesterday. What was I thinking?

My mouth feels sticky and sick from a donut. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep. What was I thinking?

My pants are tight. What was I thinking?

My vision is wonky. What was I thinking?

I'm on insulin now. What the hell was I thinking?

Starting over...NOW.